Coffee Prince ep 8/9

why did you have to hold my hand that way... now i can't get it out of my head.. and possibly.. just possibly... my heart

and so...

whatever eureka moments i've gotten, whatever things i've realised thus far about the past... doesn't matter....

i dun feel anything more than guilt and stupidity at best.. and there's just nothing to say anymore.....

i dunno why everything is coming up now.. why there's a sudden memory surge.. but it just doesn't matter anyhow.. i can't see how it does and sigh.... sometimes i wished i cared more... but i can't bring myself to....

all i remember are those events.. all the events that i refused to think more of... now come to haunt me.. and yet.. it's fading away again....

i think.... i just need time to adjust... and i will be fine

i need to be fine

i'm tired

i'm a fatigued stupid klutz

陌生人

歌曲：陌生人
歌手：蔡健雅 专辑：陌生人

一朵云能载多少思念的寄托
在忽然相遇的街头
当我们擦身而过那短短一秒钟
都明白什么都变了
一转身谁能把感慨抛在脑后
在事过境迁以后
这感情就算曾经刻骨且铭心过
过去了又改变什么
地球它又公转几周了
我不难过了甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解你只活在记忆里头
我不恨你了甚至原谅你的残忍理由
当我了解不爱了连回忆都是负荷
浓情爱恋都已陌生了
我不难过了甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解你只活在记忆里头
我不恨你了甚至感谢这样不期而遇
当我从你眼中发现我已是陌生人
我已是陌生人了
一朵云能载多少思念的寄托
在忽然相遇的街头
当我们擦身而过那短短一秒钟
都明白什么都变了
一转身谁能把感慨抛在脑后
在事过境迁以后
这感情就算曾经刻骨且铭心过
过去了又改变什么
地球它又公转几周了
我不难过了甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解你只活在记忆里头
我不恨你了甚至原谅你的残忍理由
当我了解不爱了连回忆都是负荷
浓情爱恋都已陌生了
我不难过了甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解你只活在记忆里头
我不恨你了甚至感谢这样不期而遇
当我从你眼中发现我已是陌生人
我已是陌生人了

melancholy is...

feeling the burden of the past the present problems plaguing you from the simple act of unburdening in unbridled honesty to an old friend who understands....

C

"when he went into the relationship ... his mindset was that i was made for him/meant for him... he had decided to love me and so he did and there was no out for him even if i acted like the most idiotic stupid person in the world..."

maybe not the exact words, but this was what i took away from dinner with C yesterday... to be able to find someone like that is not easy... and all i can say is.. CONGRATS dear... i'm so happy that you have found someone who with such a mindset, can only be good to you :D

*squeals* can't wait to go bridal gown shopping and food tasting and allll that stuff with you heeheee :P

thanks.. for being the one who always so easily understands why i feel the way i do and for being my spiritual guide in a lot of senses and for always sucessfully making me get out of my comfort zone for some reason or another heh :P love you loads~

回忆与想念

回忆并不代表想念- 不同的国家，不同的舞台，不同的同伴， 唯一一样的就是台上的人， 演出带来的HIGH

回忆起两年前看过那场一样的表演者的演唱会， 并不会想念同行的人，只会回忆起当时的点点滴滴...

the same performers, a different stage, a different country, different company, a slightly different act, but equally HIGH if not more so.....

while it brings back memories from 2 years ago at that concert, reminiscing about the past doesn't mean i miss the past, it's just a matter of fact feeling of... that was the past.....

it's rather.. saddening actually... that it came to this... but hey... who really cares anymore right?

all i can say is.......... MAYDAY IS GOOOOD!!!!!!!! MABS.......... NEXT TINE THEY COME WE MUST WATCH AGAIN K!!!!!! :D

Definitely maybe... let's start from here

on a whim.. the tablematey and i caught Definitely Maybe on friday after work.. yes the two crazy girls who were dead tired from work but still hyper enough to not want to go home and watch a midnight movie....

and it was surprisingly good..... and once again i realised... i'm a sucker for story lines to do with second chances.... which brings me to my new favourite song which i've been "forcing" everyone to listen to today heeheee

"standing here face to face/a finger on your lips/ don't say a word don't make a sound/ silence surrounds us now/ even when you were gone/ i felt you everywhere/let's start from here/lose the past/change our minds/we don't need a finish line/ let's take this chance/ don't think too deep/ of all those promises we couldn't seem to keep"

mmmm.... heh

anyways tablematey...... don't be pissed.... she's not worth it.. really!!! and i'll always be 5cm away to hear you rant heh :P erm.. if not you can stc me or call my ext or skype me or........... i'll run from wherever i'm sitting to wherever you are sitting (after 2nd june)!!!!! for now.. i'm still 5cm away heh

*hugs* *muacks* *loves*