growing into my own skin...

and learning to be comfortable in my own skin....

we constantly strive to be a better person.. or at least i try whenever possible, not just because i want to be a better person, but because i am a child of Christ and have the potential to be as good as Him as long as i try and pray for His strength and help etc etc.... on my own.. it's not something that's well.. achievable...

it's not easy... to not care about what the world says... it's not easy to really just say "i've a clear conscience and hence it's ok".... so what if i have a clear conscience? when others who are louder say otherwise... i start doubting myself.. i start feeling bad..... my sister says that means i'm more humane.... and although i know one can never please the world... and it's God that we are meant to please and not the world, it's still not easy.... being comfortable with who i am and having that full confidence and security that it's ok simply because i have a clear conscience ....

i'm trying.. and learning.... to be a better person and being comfortable in my own skin and not try to be someone else so as to please the world .... and trying not to bother about what others say as long as my conscience is clear....

it's not easy.. no one said it would ever be... but at least i'm trying.. at least i'm trying to be comfortable with who i am and stop worrying at every turn about everything else....

i'm trying to grow into my own skin while trying to pad that skin so that i will have more defences and be less affected by hurtful things... while trying to be a better person with God's guidance and grace....

one can only pray and try.... can't they?