i've let go.. i can feel it... and i've felt it for the longest time.. even though it might not seem obvious or apparent to others .. but i have... what's left is this sense of awkwardness and unease that i inadvertantly will make life for the pple ard us difficult.. just cos.. and the whole issue and the person is better out of my life than in any peripheral part of it... because it makes life simpler... no issues of guilt or what's right or wrong.. which means mutual avoidance etc etc....but it also means...... i like to pretend it never existed... any of it... so i'm sorry for any inconvenience caused heh
sigh... tired of all the things in life, tired of working... i rather be back in school... for some strange inexplicable reason.....
i'm just sian.....
i'm not unhappy... i just don't think i'm very happy either
for the first time in my life.. i'm struggling to want to be something i've always wanted to be.... i hate that feeling.. and i think i've lost the fight anyways
and i'm sorry i've been defeated... but right now being defeated feels.... more correct than winning this particular battle
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